Yayy (: 

erinaudreychiu asked: Yoyoyo I want to see a video of your awesome dancingness

lol for you erin audrey chiu, i shall dance in person <3

jk get online!

We just talked about everything that happened this year, and suddenly, all the memories and emotions just kept flooding back to me. Like, all of this, and it’s only been a year? Everyone that I met, every place that I’ve gone, everything that I’ve done. A year? I’m actually pretty disappointed that I gave up on Tumblr, and instead of writing worthwhile posts about such experiences, I just reblogged crap. 

It’s harder to explain now, but I am so damn grateful for everything. For my friends at home who have clearly shown that distance means nothing, for the people here who have welcomed me wholeheartedly with open arms, and for my family, who never failed to support me through it all. 

I am really tempted to do a long post about multiple highlights from the year, but I seriously have some studying to do. Except there are some things I just want to throw out there - primarily so that I can come back to.

I came into college with such high expectations - that I’d become some hot shot my first year and somehow change so drastically that people at home couldn’t recognize me. I’d be lying if I said I didn’t change at all. But I mean, I’m still me. I have my same roots, it’s just that my branches are simply growing. Flowers are beginning to blossom as I continually pinpoint new passions of mine. What I’m trying to say is, college isn’t meant to be a portal into a new life. You don’t just start over. You grow. 

And those experiences can be both good and bad - but regardless, they’re worthwhile. Everything you go through helps you discover yourself. THAT’S what college is about - growing closer to yourself. Understanding who you are and who you want to be. It’s trial and error. Alright enough of the sentimental talk.

The whole inspiration for this post came a couple of months ago. Revisiting Dance-Off. Well, not the quarter of training leading up to Dance-Off (although that seriously had some great impact on me both physically and mentally) - but to the actual day. No, actually a single moment. When DF announced that UCLA won (warning: this sentence will not be grammatical) - being on stage with my team, screaming, crying, jousting our trophy up in the air. Standing in front of an audience filled with all these other UCLA dance-off alumni, supporters, and friends. Everyone throwing their hands out to touch you as if you were a celebrity. Whether or not we knew them. Hugs and congratulations. Even you calling my name, someone that I have admired for such a long time. A moment that was so indescribable and unforgettable. Thinking about it just… I can’t explain. I thank God for allowing me to have had that experience. I thank God for allowing me to come here. I thank God for these people and for granting me all these opportunities that have shaped me so greatly. 

I thank God I made the right decision. 

from summer.

Finals are seriously the only thing in my way from my journey back home. But why do I feel like I know jackcrap in all my classes. Just sitting here with the terrifying feeling of knowing you have a crapton of things to study that you just don’t know where to start :/ 

And just a tip - don’t take linguistics. This course is actually pretty difficult man.  

Finally choreographed and showcased my first piece tonight! Yeah I messed up, but to just have that opportunity - a solo performance of my own piece, in the middle of Bruin Plaza, with so many of my friends that I met in college (who came out just to support me) standing in the crowd… Holla, it’s a pretty good ass feeling. (:

I won’t lie, the entire experience was pretty shaky and frustrating at points - but I won’t deny the fact that I was able to make so many fond memories with my team that I will continue to cherish. I built relationships that have, and will remain to stand by my side through thick and thin. And obviously there’s no doubt that I grew both as a dancer and as an individual. Who would have known? 

Plus these crewnecks are sick! 

I have finally found the hottest guy on this planet.